My life is a bit insane right now. I guess we always maintain a certain level of insanity, but the last couple of weeks have been extra special. You see, my parents know all the sordid details of my life. How they found out is a bit complicated and involves a lot of deception, but the end result was a giant intervention a couple of years ago.
There have been some issues since then, but overall the breakdown is that my dad is in a better place with it than my mom is. Both have problems with it, but Dad does better. So, when I finally gave up my apartment (which was about 10 min away from the house) and moved in with my Owner, I told my Father. I never told my Mother outright for various reasons, but having lived here for over a year, I would have thought by now it was obvious. I guess not.
On Mother’s Day she decided ask me where I’m living. So, now I’m dealing a bit with the drama from that. She apparently still thinks I am 16 and can control me externally with sanctions and is making threats regarding the car I’ve driven since I was 16, but which is technically still in my parents names. “You’ve been a bad bad girl, I’m taking your car away and if you don’t shape up you’re going to miss prom too!.” *sigh*
I decided I was done. I wrote her a very long letter saying all the things I’ve wanted to say to her for years. I tried to be nice, but she needs to realize that I am my own person. No response on that yet, but we will see. There is really no accounting for these things. She can have the car, though. Then what strings will she have to pull?
In other news, I guess I need to get a job. I’m really bummed about this because I love being home so much. Of course there are always ups and downs, but I’ve enjoyed this more than anything else I’ve done in my life employment wise. I’d like to think this will be temporary, but who knows. We have a lot of mouths to feed. If any of ya’ll want to hire me to work from home, please let me know! I’m only kind of kidding on that, you know. Still,I imagine I’ll be in an office soon. Such is life.
Still, it’s kind of weirding me out. Because of course, it’s not just my getting a job. It’s changing the way I view my role and my service. It changes the way in which I am a slave. I have to totally change the way I look at things. Again.
So that’s what is exciting in my life! I’m looking forward to boringness again. Someday, huh?
