My Girls

Before I get into this post, I want to emphasize that what I am about to talk about is my fantasy. It’s an activity that is based in consent between adults. This is not about real children for either of us.

I mentioned in a previous post that Master has recently embraced the concept of age play. I’ve been very excited about this because it is a piece of me that I’ve never really gotten to express. Even those who are comfortable in theory with age play usually don’t like the level of abusiveness that I am interested in. In the past what I’ve done is settled for allowing myself to “feel little” once in a while during scenes where it wasn’t explicitly stated.

However, with all the changes occurring in our relationship Master and I have been playing a lot with this stuff much more overtly. I think it’s been helpful for me to allow myself to feel a little more childlike because it’s allowed me to deal with some of my emotions that I have been keeping under the surface for a while now.

It’s been really nice to have the option to initiate with a simple shift in the way I address him. If I call him Daddy he knows I’m feeling little and vulnerable. It’s a way to convey where I am without nagging, and I like that. I love that I have the opportunity to be loved and protected by my Daddy while still knowing that at any minute he could turn and be Bad Daddy. The lines are blurred, and it keeps me on my toes.

I think Master enjoys it  too. He has continually thrown out ideas and scenarios and we have talked about them. Most of these I find incredibly hot. However, one thing we discovered while talking about this is that we have different fantasy ages in mind. I generally prefer to be younger (pre-teen), whereas Master is mostly interested in a slightly older headspace. Through talking about this we also discovered that there are elements of all these ages that we find appealing. They all lend themselves to different types of scenes.

Ultimately this led to a brilliant idea on Master’s part. We’ve created four different girls of four different ages, and they all have a different name. Master especially liked this because it provides a mechanism for him to tell me where his head is and where he wants to go in a scene. I also have the option of telling him which one I am identifying with at any given time. They all seem really interesting, and I’m excited to get to know them. That’s actually why I started this post- to tell you about them.

Just like last time, details are behind the cut. Read at your own discretion. Also keep in mind that these are fantasies between adults. None of us would ever support harming real children.

Hannah, Age 8

Hannah is a very good girl. She does well in school and is liked by her teachers. She is also sweet and innocent. Although she may occasionally make small mistakes, they are not reflections of naughtiness. Hannah does what she is told when she is told to do it, and she is always respectful. This is because Hannah really likes to please- especially her Daddy.

Despite all of this, Hannah still gets lots of spankings. Daddy can usually point out something she has done wrong. Sometimes she leaves the cap off the toothpaste, or she forgets to put her glass away. She also tends to miss spots when she cleans something. Sometimes she doesn’t even know what she did wrong.

Note from Daddy: Hannah is not forgetful or really doing anything truly wrong or worthy of punishment, it’s Daddy’s desire to see her little ass red that fuels it.

This age is really appealing to me specifically because of the vulnerability. Hannah is very little and needs her Daddy and wants to please him. He’s really her world, and there are a lot of opportunities for him to use that for good or for evil!

Cassie, Age 10

Cassie is very stubborn and willful. She isn’t a bad girl, but she does know what she wants. What she wants is to have fun and enjoy herself. She doesn’t want to go schoolwork or clean her room. She is happy if she can sneak off with a pocket full of illicit candy and do her own thing.

Cassie loves to make Daddy proud, and she knows what happens when he gets angry. That’s why she tends to be more devious about her misbehavior. If she thinks she can get away with it she will happily lie her way out of a situation that might make Daddy blow up.

Note from Daddy: Cassie is also more likely a target of physical abuse; not as much sexual, but more so than Hannah.

This age is appealing again in terms of vulnerability. It’s also the one that I relate to most, and the age I most naturally gravitate to in my head. No wonder she is so much like I was at that age!

Elizabeth, Age 13

Elizabeth really is just an older version of Cassie. I don’t think there is going to be much difference between them personality wise (although anyone who has ever done role play can tell you about being surprised by these things sometimes). I even had the thought that they may be the same person. Cassie Elizabeth. Lots of girls switch their names around in Jr. High. I think I will just have to get to know her better to say for sure. I do know she prefers to go by “Lissa” though.

Lissa doesn’t like the abuse she receives from Daddy, but she knows that it isn’t going to stop. She also feels conflicted because sometimes what he does to her feels good even if she knows it’s wrong. Knowing how volatile Daddy is, Lissa knows how to get what she wants from him, even if she doesn’t like it.

Note from Daddy: Elizabeth is the target of serious sexual abuse, there is some physical abuse, but it’s mostly to make her compliant sexually.

Paige, Age 16

Paige is very complicated. She is very mouthy and strong willed. She views herself as an adult and conducts herself accordingly. Paige also harbors a lot of anger toward Daddy and sometimes lashes out at him when he makes advances. Still, she loves Daddy and doesn’t want him to be angry with her. She fears what happens when she pushes too hard, but sometimes she just can’t help it.

Paige is also dealing with the fact that sometimes she enjoys what Daddy does to her. Sometimes she even wants it. She doesn’t know how to get what she wants when she knows that it’s taboo.

Note from Daddy: Paige is the mouthy bitch. She is likely to be a target of both intense physical and sexual abuse. I think that most of the time she will put up a little token resistance. Occasionally it will be some serious resistance, that she’ll get seriously beat for, but then afterward Daddy will hold her and comfort her. I see this one as the most volatile, lots of yelling, followed by some reconnecting, possibly even sexual enjoyment on her part.

So there they are. I intend to write about them more as they start to play a role in my day to day life. I’ll personally be very interested to see how much of these girls matches what we’ve come up with and how much happens on it’s own.